Though the work in Disquieting Muses appears to represent a fictional world, I have come to realize that it is actually a personal voyage undertaken to discover my inner self, and how that self is perceived by others. One thing that has led me to this conclusion is that many viewers seem to think the images are self-portraits. In fact, the pictures are of my twin sister, with whom I’ve spent all my life—so even for me, they have the same kinds of meaning that self-portraits would have.
Because I’ve shared most of my life experience with my sister, the photographs are also about the emotional power of our common memories. Some of these memories are dark, which is why some of the images may be disturbing. Life has its “ups and downs,” as the saying goes, and I believe that these emotional vagaries are part of the normal spectrum of human experience. My hope is that the images express this range of feeling.
Of course the memories that the images represent are not concrete reenactments of actual experiences, but rather my own, abstract way of confronting things I remember. Still, I want them to capture the way memories continually shape the way we feel, live, and communicate, as well as how they influence our own perceptions of ourselves. In creating them, with my own sister as my muse, I have become more comfortable with myself.